Day 13- A Person I Wish Could Forgive Me

Day 13- 31st July 2010

Hi there,

First of all, I just wanna tell you I'm really sorry. It was a misunderstanding at that point of time but I never got to tell you that before you left. Believe me, if I could go back in time and change what I did I will.
I've been friends with you for the longest time, longer than anyone else. I still can't believe that we let something as minor as that come between our six years of friendship. I can't tell you I'm sorry because I'm completely out of touch with you. I just hope that maybe you will stumble across this blog one day and read all of this. The odds are kind of stacked against that but whatever.

I'm sorry.

♥hazel

Day 12- The Person I Hate The Most

Day 12- July 30th 2010

Yeah I know my letters have been short lately so today I'm gonna make up for it by writing two letters for the same day. Here goes.

Hi stranger.

To be honest, I think I never really forgived you. I find it hard to believe that we were once best friends a long time ago and that I really trusted you back then. You made me believe in everything you said and you lied to me. I hate you for that. Worst of all I found out only a long while later that you were just a backstabbing bitch out to get me for nothing. I always thought you were on my side but it turns out that you were working behind the scenes all along.

I was naive enough to believe you and to turn on one of my best friends and because of you, we're not on that good terms anymore. You surely didn't show any shame or remorse at all when I called you out for all your lies, and personally I don't think you're capable of any of that. I hate myself most of all for letting myself believe you and being so gullible. I always thought you were that innocent little girl but it turned out differently. I don't know where you are right now and if you even remember me but I hope you're guilty for what you did.

♥hazel

The Person That Caused Me The Most Pain

Dear _____,

This is fucking ironic and I feel pathetic. I just wrote about you a week ago and now I'm writing about you again, this time from a whole different perspective.

To begin, I don't hate you, rather the opposite and I can't help myself. You made me cry countless of times with the things that you did and the worst thing is that you don't even know that. I wish I could tell you and let you know about the many things that you did that hurt me but I can't. And I don't want to seem like a whiny person because I'm not.

Sometimes when I'm fully down to earth and facing reality, I tell myself that we will never be together. But then when that happens, you do something that makes me think otherwise and make me go off into dreamland where I think anything is possible. Maybe you're doing it on purpose but I think that's entirely impossible. And then you do something that makes me fall back down into harsh reality again and the cycle repeats.

I have to admit that one of my friends know about this and she hates you for what you did/are doing to me. I don't know if she's on the right track for hating you, because I can't bring myself to hate you or forget you no matter how hard I try. Even after a year of no contact, when I see you, I'm just back to square one again. So thanks.

♥hazel

Day 11- A Deceased Person I Wish I Could Talk To

Day 11- July 29th 2010

Hi.

I think I feel sort of like a jinx because you died the day when I was born. I know it probably has nothing to do with me at all but still. I never got to know you as well as I'd like to but the fact that rarely anyone gets to know their great grandparents comforts me. My parents keep talking about how your cooking rocks and how you were such a nice person overall. And I don't even know your name. How suckish is that? & LOL my mom said you made me a blanket and I still keep it hehe. It's still in my room.
So basically I wish I knew you and had the chance to talk to you.

♥hazel

Day 10- Someone You Don't Talk To Much

Day 10- July 28 2010

Hi,

So I know ever since two years ago we haven't been talking much, but I wanna tell you that you've been an awesome friend. I'm a personal witness to this. You provide assistance whenever someone in our group needs it and you're always there whenver someone needs you. In group work I can always count on you to get things done and to get the rest of the group to co-operate and thanks a lot for doing that. We don't talk as much as I'd like us to talk but for now it's improving, so yay. I don't know if I'll still be in the same class as you next year and I possibly doubt so, but I hope we keep in touch.

♥ hazel

Day 9- Someone I Wish I Could Meet

Day 9- July 26th 2010

Dear someone,

This is gonna be pretty lame because I'm writing to a celebrity. Bear with me.

Hi. I know you came here already in 2008 and I think everyone would laugh if they knew I had withdrawal symptoms (MINOR ones) after you left. Well, they sort of do now. I'm jealous everytime I look at pictures other fans have with you so yeah haha. It's pretty pathetic of me to say that I don't have any of your CDs(legit ones) and have only been to one tour but still. SCHEDULE A MEET AND GREET PLEASE??? I would be so happy if you did. & do us a favour and hurry with the record.

♥ hazel

Day 8- Internet Friend

Day 8- July 25th 2010

Hi best internet friend!

Lol wow. It's really hard to say what would and what wouldn't have happened if I hadn't met you. & when I think back to that time, it totally wouldn't have happened if something I wished for so badly were to happen. Did that make sense? Lolll. & I really appreciate you more than you'd ever know.
And thanks for helping me with him (haha). Even though it didn't work out as we wanted to? It's hard to exactly describe our friendship and I get confused by the complexity of it sometimes. But maybe it's best just to let it be and see how things turn out.
One of the reasons that I'm thankful for you is that you're as crazy as I am about two certain people! It's pretty hard to find someone that matches up because if I talk to anyone else about it then they'd go crazy of boredom. So thanks =)
I love talking to you because you are awesomeee. Simple as that.
So I know it seems as if we're all fun and jokes but under that all I hope there's something else?

♥hazel

Day 7- Ex Crush

Day 7- July 24th 2010

Dear ex crush,

I didn't stop liking you because you did something wrong or whatever. To be honest, you were just a fling and I had a good run. It was fun while it lasted and yeah. I feel impossibly stupid right now just for liking you and even thinking we had a chance but oh well. It must be what they call a moment of insanity. For me it was more like 2 weeks of insanity so yeah. But no damage done so all's well. I... don't really have anything else to say to you so.. thanks?

♥hazel

Day 6- A Stranger

Day 6- July 23rd 2010

Hi stranger,

Mommy told me not to talk to strangers. JK. Hi, what's going on? I don't really know what to say to you except... the weather sure is hottt! Haha. Have a nice day.

♥hazel

Day 5- My Dreams

Day 5- July 22nd 2010

Dear dreams,

Hi there, it's your person here. You're everything I'm not, and well, let's thank our lucky stars that you're not a real person. If not, you'd be the one and only perfect person on this earth. You persuade me to chase things that are either entirely impossible or partially impossible. A lot of the time you frustrate me because whatever you made me achieve is totally unattainable. Maybe I expect a lot of myself and I'm just confusing you with my expectations but you're still to blame. And yet I have to thank you at the same time because you push me toward my goals and make me perservere in whatever I do. There have been some instances that you came true though and I'm thoroughly thankful for that.

So keep doing what you do best.

♥hazel

Day 4- A Close Relative

Day 4- July 21 2010

Dear close relative,

Well I don't have a sibling so I decided I'd write to you instead. So you've a pretty cool aunt to me. Everytime you go overseas to a new country you'll bring back souvenirs from that country for me and it's pretty cool haha. I love your stories as well, though that makes me sound like a five year old kid. I think I'm the closest to you as compared to my other relatives. I can talk to you about anything at all and yet not feel like you're gonna scold me or something so that's good. So close is not really like close close if you know what I mean so I don't really know what else to write haha. So thanks for being my aunt =)

♥hazel

Day 3- My Parents

Day 3- July 20th 2010

Hi Daddy and Mommy (haha this sounds so innocent)

So this is from your little girl. Thanks for always being there for me and providing for me no matter what the circumstances are. I know you probably won't ever read this but I wanna thank you for everything you've ever done for me. Thanks Dad for making all those lame jokes to cheer me up when I was feeling low or simply just PMSing haha. Thanks for taking the time out of your busy schedule to tutor me in Math or whatever subject I had problems with. & I know we pretty much go crazy together when it comes to computer games but that's the fun of it. Hardly you see any daughter crazy over computer games so appreciate it! JK.

Thanks Mom for being there when I needed to talk and for pushing me so hard in my studies. Maybe sometimes I resent that but in the end it always turns out well. I know you worry about me a lot and I appreciate your concern over me all these years. Thank you for putting up with my tantrums every now and then and tolerating me to the best that you can.

Thank you both for whatever you've done for me since I was born, which I know is a lot. I really appreciate that and can't thank you enough. I love the both of you.

♥hazel

Day 2- My Crush

Day 2- July 19 2010.

Hi my crush,

When someone asks me why I like you I can't find a reason. Maybe I don't need a reason? It's hard to exactly describe why I like you but I'm gonna try. Even though some people I know are utterly convinced you are the worst person on earth. Here goes.
Baseddd on stalking, we pretty much have the same taste in music(I think) and that's cool since music is kinda a big part of my life. & you're different from the others. Let's face it, I don't know about your family financially(I probably don't know anything about you) but what I do know is that you don't flaunt your financial status around like some others do. You're a pretty sweet person in real life as I've experienced through some events I'm not gonna state publicly. & while you're not like supermodel cute, I'm not either so you're good enough for me =) You don't think everyone's beneath you either like some people I'm not gonna mention here.
Okay so I think that basically sums it up. If you're reading this, whoever you are and thinking, wow this girl is such a bitch, she only likes her guy for a number of reasons, whatever. I don't really know how to wear my heart on a sleeve on a blog like this so yeah. Yup, that's all for now.

♥hazel

Happiness is simple.

Day 1- July 18 2010.

Hi my best friend(s),

You guys are really awesome and I don't think I'd be where I am without you. Even though we have our fights and such, I still consider you all to be my lifeline. You were there for me when I was down and while I understand I haven't been perfect, thank you for tolerating all my antics haha. I can tell most of you anything and still feel comfortable and I'm really thankful for that. Same goes vice versa. Some of you guys can really tell what I'm feeling without me telling you and maybe that's just me being transparent but whatever. You don't just tell me what I want to hear but what's best for me and I love you for that. Maybe I don't appreciate you guys enough sometimes but this post goes to you for just exsisting. Love you all ♥

"Friendship isn't about how long you've known that person, it's about how long that person has stuck with you."

♥hazel

You are the only exception.

Finally I'm blogging again. And it's a Monday night.

Anyway. I had fun last last (LOL) Monday going out with Radiant, Jamie, Sarah and Stella. We watched Karate Kid and poor Stella was left to watch Eclipse on her own lol. But she didn't really mind so yeah. After that we took neo prints! I am sad to admit that I have no life and thus have never taken a neo print before and it was my first time hahaha. We rushed like maddd to get into the frame before the camera went off and I must say it was really something haha. I had one picture where I was looking somewhere else and so we had to cover my face with a cat lolol.

Other than that the week was pretty boring. The first week of school was tough though. & I have to wear my full uniform on Wednesday so that sucks a lot. && I have to go attend flag day this Sunday so ;(

PS: I'm gonna try to accomplish this challenge DAILY, WITHOUT BREAK. (depending on when I start hahaha)


write a letter to these people :
day 1 — your best friend
day 2 — your crush
day 3 — your parents
day 4 — your sibling (or closest relative)
day 5 — your dreams
day 6 — a stranger
day 7 — your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
day 8 — your favorite internet friend
day 9 — someone you wish you could meet
day 10 — someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
day 11 — a deceased person you wish you could talk to
day 12 — the person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
day 13 — someone you wish could forgive you
day 14 — someone you’ve drifted away from
day 15 — the person you miss the most
day 16 — someone that’s not in your state/country
day 17 — someone from your childhood
day 18 — the person that you wish you could be
day 19 — someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
day 20 — the one that broke your heart the hardest
day 21 — someone you judged by their first impression
day 22 — someone you want to give a second chance to
day 23 — the last person you kissed
day 24 — the person that gave you your favorite memory
day 25 — the person you know that is going through the worst of times
day 26 — the last person you made a pinky promise to
day 27 — the friendliest person you knew for only one day
day 28 — someone that changed your life
day 29 — the person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
day 30 — your reflection in the mirror

<3 hazel
PPS Which month has exactly 30 days??