Day 12- The Person I Hate The Most

Day 12- July 30th 2010

Yeah I know my letters have been short lately so today I'm gonna make up for it by writing two letters for the same day. Here goes.

Hi stranger.

To be honest, I think I never really forgived you. I find it hard to believe that we were once best friends a long time ago and that I really trusted you back then. You made me believe in everything you said and you lied to me. I hate you for that. Worst of all I found out only a long while later that you were just a backstabbing bitch out to get me for nothing. I always thought you were on my side but it turns out that you were working behind the scenes all along.

I was naive enough to believe you and to turn on one of my best friends and because of you, we're not on that good terms anymore. You surely didn't show any shame or remorse at all when I called you out for all your lies, and personally I don't think you're capable of any of that. I hate myself most of all for letting myself believe you and being so gullible. I always thought you were that innocent little girl but it turned out differently. I don't know where you are right now and if you even remember me but I hope you're guilty for what you did.

♥hazel

The Person That Caused Me The Most Pain

Dear _____,

This is fucking ironic and I feel pathetic. I just wrote about you a week ago and now I'm writing about you again, this time from a whole different perspective.

To begin, I don't hate you, rather the opposite and I can't help myself. You made me cry countless of times with the things that you did and the worst thing is that you don't even know that. I wish I could tell you and let you know about the many things that you did that hurt me but I can't. And I don't want to seem like a whiny person because I'm not.

Sometimes when I'm fully down to earth and facing reality, I tell myself that we will never be together. But then when that happens, you do something that makes me think otherwise and make me go off into dreamland where I think anything is possible. Maybe you're doing it on purpose but I think that's entirely impossible. And then you do something that makes me fall back down into harsh reality again and the cycle repeats.

I have to admit that one of my friends know about this and she hates you for what you did/are doing to me. I don't know if she's on the right track for hating you, because I can't bring myself to hate you or forget you no matter how hard I try. Even after a year of no contact, when I see you, I'm just back to square one again. So thanks.

♥hazel