Yay I'm back!
And I just finished uploading some overdue pictures in my camera. It always pays off to be the one that takes the photos because you can delete your unglams later on and post other peoples'. Hehehe. Can you say paparazzi much?
Today I went to YW's house to make teacher's day cards with Rad and Jamie. We were VERY unproductive, and I think in the end we only finished like three cards. Failll lol. We were slacking off on the computer and eating fried bee hoon and cheese tofu and drinking guava juice with egg mixed in it. hahaha.
I had bangs cut today! They look really awesome lolll. Other than that nothing much happened though.
I'm going to Sentosa tomorrow. Remember what I said in my previous post? Scratch that. I'm really excited haha. I haven't been to Sentosa/Vivo for more than a year because I have no life. >.>
& that reminds me that I haven't packed for tomorrow at all. The night is still young and I'm off to download some songs hehehe.
PS: I changed the blogskin. Pretty radd yeah?
♥hazel
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Monday, August 23, 2010
I have no more excuses...
To stay away from here anymore. So first up: I gave up on the letter challenge. Surpriseee. The letters are kind of third degree and yeah. I'm a total loser.
Nexttt. So this is a warning for the coming post. I apologise if it's gonna be what you get when you're feeling down or whatever but I've been reading too much of Evan's blog lately so maybe that can explain this post. It's not dark or whatever but still I felt like I had to warn you. Here goes.
I think I'm confusing myself. One moment I think, hey, it's okay to _________ even though that happened last time. And what happened was good and it should have happened. But then an hour or so later I will start thinking, oh no, I can't do that, it's wayyy too embarrassing. So I don't know what's up with me. Did you understand that? Because I didn't lol.
Sometimes I wonder if maybe I had responded differently or been more daring or less daring would things turn out differently. Or maybe if I had made an effort. Would it make a difference? Or would things just be the same?
"Losing something is easy when you have nothing." I stole that off Ev's blog. (Btw I just made my wish. 11:11.) On the contrary, I would think it's harder. Although in theory, how can you lose something when you have nothing at all? That's only proving that you once thought that you had that something, only to discover that it's not yours at all. Same with if you feel betrayed, then that only proves that there was trust in the first place. All these things just make us as about transparent as glass.
So this Sunday I'm going to Sentosa with my cell. I'm hoping it'll be fun, and I'm not saying this cynically, but it probably won't. Call me pessimist if you must. And my 11:11 wish was somehow related to that.
I wish I had something that could help me see into the future, like for example if I make a choice, I get to see what that choice will result in, or if I say something, how the other person would react. Or maybe something that can tell me how things could have turned out if I did this or if I did that, etc. But I know that's entirely impossible so I'd better stop thinking about it.
I promise I won't be like this the next time I come back.
♥hazel
Nexttt. So this is a warning for the coming post. I apologise if it's gonna be what you get when you're feeling down or whatever but I've been reading too much of Evan's blog lately so maybe that can explain this post. It's not dark or whatever but still I felt like I had to warn you. Here goes.
I think I'm confusing myself. One moment I think, hey, it's okay to _________ even though that happened last time. And what happened was good and it should have happened. But then an hour or so later I will start thinking, oh no, I can't do that, it's wayyy too embarrassing. So I don't know what's up with me. Did you understand that? Because I didn't lol.
Sometimes I wonder if maybe I had responded differently or been more daring or less daring would things turn out differently. Or maybe if I had made an effort. Would it make a difference? Or would things just be the same?
"Losing something is easy when you have nothing." I stole that off Ev's blog. (Btw I just made my wish. 11:11.) On the contrary, I would think it's harder. Although in theory, how can you lose something when you have nothing at all? That's only proving that you once thought that you had that something, only to discover that it's not yours at all. Same with if you feel betrayed, then that only proves that there was trust in the first place. All these things just make us as about transparent as glass.
So this Sunday I'm going to Sentosa with my cell. I'm hoping it'll be fun, and I'm not saying this cynically, but it probably won't. Call me pessimist if you must. And my 11:11 wish was somehow related to that.
I wish I had something that could help me see into the future, like for example if I make a choice, I get to see what that choice will result in, or if I say something, how the other person would react. Or maybe something that can tell me how things could have turned out if I did this or if I did that, etc. But I know that's entirely impossible so I'd better stop thinking about it.
I promise I won't be like this the next time I come back.
♥hazel
Monday, August 02, 2010
HIATUS ;(
Okay so this letter thing has become more of a drag than fun for me lately. My OCDness has been pestering me to get online everyday to post my blog and usually I feel so museless and so I write out really short letters. Maybe some of you guys reading my letters have absolutely no issue with that but I kind of do haha. Maybe I expect too much of myself but whatever. &&& Exams are coming up which gives me another excuse to stay away from here. So what's gonna happen is that I'll only update this on the weekends, namely Saturday and Sunday, and possibly Friday as well. Maybe the coming Monday as well since it's National Day? We'll see. No promises because I value quantity AND quality.
♥ lots,
hazel
♥ lots,
hazel
Sunday, August 01, 2010
Day 14- Someone I Have Drifted Away From
Day 14- August 1st 2010
Dear Kae,
Hi there. It was awesome knowing you and RP-ing with you. Although the time we knew each other was kind of short, we were really good friends. I kind of suck when it comes to long distance relationships as shown. I don't know how it ended but we kind of drifted as the days went on.
So now recently I tried emailing you and such but either you don't remember who I am or you aren't using that email account anymore. Or maybe you just don't go online anymore. It's been what, 2 years since we last talked and I kind of miss that tbh haha.
I miss you.
♥hazel
Dear Kae,
Hi there. It was awesome knowing you and RP-ing with you. Although the time we knew each other was kind of short, we were really good friends. I kind of suck when it comes to long distance relationships as shown. I don't know how it ended but we kind of drifted as the days went on.
So now recently I tried emailing you and such but either you don't remember who I am or you aren't using that email account anymore. Or maybe you just don't go online anymore. It's been what, 2 years since we last talked and I kind of miss that tbh haha.
I miss you.
♥hazel
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