Day 17 to 21

helloooooooooo long time no see! haha i apologise yet AGAIN for being so late! it's just the next few days' topics are a little meh so i put off blogging :x

Day 17 - A song that you want to play at your funeral

Slipped Away by Avril Lavigne

i really couldn't find any other song to fit this day :( but this is such a lovely song and even though i haven't thought as far as my funeral yet, i know this is the song i'd want them to play. it's a sad song, but i think it's perfect. and the only reason why i put the live version instead of the studio one is that this performance is so much better and it gives me shivers. she's truly so talented.



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Day 18 - A song that makes you laugh

Animal by Neon Trees

i love the introduction and the guitars and the MV is funny too. not good enough reason? well i don't know how else to say it :/



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Day 19 - A song that turns you on

Better Than You by Evan Taubenfeld



enough said.

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Day 20 - A song you've listened to after a break-up

If This Was A Movie by Taylor Swift

i remember i felt so awful after that, even though it wasn't a breakup per se. this technically wasn't the song that i put on replay after that horrible day, the song being Everybody Hurts. But seeing as i've already put that song down... yeah. ugh haha now that i listen to it, it's quite a pathetic song to listen to after a breakup. but it hurt so much. you wouldn't even know. it varies, sometimes it's a dull ache and others it's a sharp pain that hits so fast that it left/leaves me breathless. the immediate days after that were the worst, i'm just glad i got through safely.

but now i'm over that. thank God.



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Day 21 - A song that gives you shivers

Thinking of You by Katy Perry

Firstly, this song is so touching! i remember the first time i heard it it was the acoustic version and it was because of a dramione manip that had some of the words on it. then i went to look for the music video and when i watched it for the first time, i almost cried. i love the first verse so much. "you said move on where do i go? i guess second best is all i will know." that line makes me tear up ♥ and the bridge paired with the music and the video is definitely a tearjerker. love it so much, this proves that Katy can write songs that are deeper than 'california girls, we'll melt your popsicle' or whatever.




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finally! haha but i guess it is my fault for not blogging for a few days. i may or may not have counted the days wrongly, but whatever, what counts is that i do everything right?

so well on tuesday i found out three things that made me think a lot today. i can't exactly say them on here but i'll just let you guys know that it's regarding CCA matters. i really don't know how to take it, although the first one changes nothing about what position i'm in now *HINT* and the rest dont affect anything. haha. but ugh. now i know why it's so weird with us. i was never wanted to be in there in the first place. now that i think about it, they actually had it perfectly planned, until me and her came in to ruin their whole plan. they actually wanted her to be what i am.

and now i'm more confused than ever. so what's your opinion of her? i thought you kind of hated her but now i find out that you actually wanted her to take your place? that's the second thing. the third thing... well it doesn't really matter anymore, since it's over.

i can't believe i've been so slow and stupid all this while, thinking that everything fell perfectly into place when it's not like that at all. actually i've had some hints, just that i chose to take them lightly.

just a few more months left.

♥ always,
hazel.