i know i'm being unfair, but i deserve to right? it's been 68 days. no improvement. i guess it was over zealous of me to expect to recover from 2 years in 2 months. forget you. for now. it's freaking damn hard to let go and sometimes i dont want to. why should i? just because you like someone else(plural)? but then again, you were never mine to start with, so letting go should be easier than it seems. if only.
OCIP is in a little more than a week!!!!!!!!!!! ♪ haha i'm so excited although i have a million things that i have to do before, which does not include packing btw. i really really hope it goes well. my group is doing the bulk of the projects and only 3 people in the so called group are actually working so yeah. thanks a lot. i hope all the past 2-1 people can bunk together, it's gonna be so much fun :)
Avoid with a capital A. and what did that give me? she asked me that and i was at a loss for words. i can't exactly say closure, because i know that up to now i still dont have it. some time to heal i guess? but i know that time is not enough. i need something else, but i dont know what it is and i dont think anyone can tell me either. like she said, it's my choice. i wish it didnt have to be. can someone help me run my life now?
it's so hard to let go.
this coming week is short. four days and i'm looking forward to thursday. i hope we'll be able to get all the OCIP preparations done in time though.
"it's not enough, it's not enough, to get me what it is i want. and i wish it was. i think it's time to give this up."
and he said, "i'll spear your heart for breakfast."
♥ always,
hazel
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