we're paying with love tonight.

our exchanges are limited, but when they happen, they're totally worth it.

So... i'm not really sure what happened last weekend but I'll try my best to untangle my thoughts. Let's start on Saturday. I was so caught up with celebrating Complicated's 9th year anniversary that I totally forgot something else that happened on that day exactly two months ago. another way in which Avril wins. :) So saturday passed uneventfully and i only realised about it the next day, and of course i had to go to church. melanie came with me and to cut a long story short, it was terrible. i dont ever wanna go back there again because i dont want to get hurt anymore. even melanie told me to get out of that place and i'm starting to think i should too. but where to?

I don't want to see his stupid jerkface ever again. he's such a three timer. in chinese they have that saying where both of your legs straddle two boats, but in this case he seems to have three legs. i hope he's an ugly octopus by the end of his life. jerkkk. he ruined my whole day but then later i just forgot about it, because such a lame, proud and stupid guy like him doesn't deserve my attention.

The good point out of my whole Sunday was that i went to get contacts and i managed to get them on in about 5ish mins. yayyyy :) so then after that i rushed home and tried to do homework, but i was too distracted by our mutual hate for a certain boy, even though hers was totally non BGRish but still, it's something right?

And so now i'm starting to see why she(totally someone else that i hate/hated) wanted to wait, and i totally think she's making the right choice, but it'd be better if she didnt like him at all. no one should like such a jerk. he even tries to limit my vocabulary, but i admit i haven't had much experience in describing such people.

Okay we're over with that. Today I got back bio and missed my A by 0.2 marks, but oh well. what can i do. Avril, it's all your fault. JKJK i never regretted seeing her.

i really really dont want to bring it up anymore. because the last time i did so you got totally angry at me, as if it's my fault that you're ignoring us, as if i have to pay for a mistake that you made. and i just want to tell you that it's not her fault. it's YOURS. all completely YOURS. so stop telling her what mistake YOU made, because what part of your mistake that she made, she's already made up for it. you? you're all words, no action. you said you'd change. heck, i don't even remember that. you just got so angry and guilt tripped me into forgiving you.

whatever. i feel like punching both of you in the face. maybe you should just get together, one jerk, and one hypocrite. makes a good match, no?

♥always,
hazel