I'm finally back from another long week and with a little while to rest before it's back to hall again tonight :(
Quite a few things happened this week. Lessons were alright, I'm trying my best to keep up with my readings. Tutorials are held quite differently than from JC, it feels like we are focusing a lot on basic content rather than analysing methods, techniques and links, the way I'm used to. I hope we'll settle into a more familiar way soon. Badminton trials was quite a disappointment, I know I'm not competitive material but I feel like I didn't play to the best of my ability, be it from nerves or something else. I got into the recreational team, but now I'm not so sure I want to be in it since I felt so shitty after the first trials.
On a brighter note, I had my first volleyball training on Friday, and it was really good! I last played volleyball back in secondary school, but somehow I still remember the technique and I really enjoyed it, despite the bruises on my arms after. I really hope I can join the competitive team for volleyball and maybe play for inter hall games? The next training I have is tomorrow, and I hope it'll be as good as the first :)
On Wednesday night we had supper hop, and it was really quite a huge deal. We even had buses chartered for us. Our first stop was East Coast Park, and since NTU is in the West, we took about an hour plus to reach there. I think we ate a little too much there haha but the food was too good to resist. After that we headed to Upper Thompson for Salted Caramel, Udders, and soybean and beancurd :) I guess it wasn't much of a supper hop since it was only 2 stops but we were really full (at least I was) and ready to call it a night.
And on Friday night we had JASH! We started off the night by pre drinking in some activity room and played games such as I Never and Burning Bridges etc. We were kind of hesitant to go to JASH since we heard that there were very few people at the event, and some of us thought it was kind of lame for it to be held at Nanyang Audi. But we ended up heading over at around 12, and by that time it was already quite filled up with people. The DJ kind of sucked though, and I didn't really know most of the songs that they were playing.
Now on to the messed up parts of the night. My SP(really long story about him, but I'll just say that he's a really greasy person) tried to force me to take shots of hard liquor by saying he would vote for me to be in JCRC if I drank. To which I responded, "I don't need your vote then." But he just said that he represented his whole OG (and that's kind of true since he's the future CGL and holds quite a big influence over them). At that point I was ready to give in and drink, but only because of his vote but luckily my friends who were with me stopped me and led me away. I'm so thankful for them because I have no idea what I would have done without them, I would have probably accepted the drink and who knows what would have happened from there... :'(
I tried not to let my night get ruined by him but it was kind of hard, since whenever I was on the dance floor I kept looking around to make sure he wouldn't suddenly pop up. Even now as I'm recalling this and typing it, I'm so utterly disgusted and for some reason, I feel so weak and useless, because I remember that at one point in time I almost accepted the drink. I was so helpless and at his mercy and I just lost control of the situation. Up to now I still don't know what I could have said or done in response to his "threat", whether he was serious or joking, and whether I can win without him. I was already stressing enough about running for JCRC, but he just made everything worse.
I'm so thankful for my hall OG, since after that happened they kind of made a protective circle around me, and even though I could see him lingering nearby, I knew he didn't dare to approach me anymore since I was surrounded. At that moment I felt really safe and I knew I had people who had my back :) At this point one of my GLs whom I had a slight interest in before this started getting kind of close to me, and it may seem contradictory, but I didn't really mind. He kept trying to push me to other guys and I guess he was teasing me in a way, and kept using that excuse to grab my hands or slip his arm around my waist. At one point when I left for the washroom and came back, he was waiting outside and took my hand to lead me back to the dance floor. I don't really know if he's really interested in me or was just playful and in the moment, but I guess I won't get my hopes up.
Some of my friends say that his attention is bad attention too, but what if I don't mind it? Is it still bad?
Oh and yesterday night I attended the HSS DND 2015! It was really nice to see everyone all dressed to the nines and to gather with GAIA again :) The food wasn't all that great, although the company made up for it. I wasn't really that chatty yesterday since I was still tired from JASH the previous night, but overall it was a good night :))
This coming week is equally as busy, volleyball training tomorrow, JCRC walkabout on Tuesday and Wednesday, rally on Thursday and finally Friday to rest (if nothing comes up). This post is such a mess cause I'm really tired but I just wanted to get everything written down so I wouldn't forget about it.
I'll keep you updated :)
❤️always,
hazel
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