Let's start with the very beginning of this horrible day. First of all, it's Thursday and that alone isn't good news. I don't really want to talk about it anymore so let's just say that asdfghjkl happened. (ugh by the way i keep wanting to plug in my laptop but i realise at the same time that my charger is all the way across the room and i don't wanna go get it. but hey, that's what batteries are for right?) alright so... all i can say is that i have no more respect for you. Maybe I did in the beginning, a small scrap of it but now that's gone too.
I was really pleased when they all showed up on time today. So it was really unusual but PTL for that :) when everything was over... i wasn't just disappointed by what she said to us, or even what she did. it was what she overlooked. the girls doing it today made a huge load of effort, and i should know. they showed up early on tuesday when they could've slept in, showed up on time today when they could've been late. can't you freaking acknowledge that? i mean, i was once like you too, but after a while i've come to realise that you can't expect too much of them, or else you'll be the one that's disappointed. why don't you take a walk in my shoes for a second, see how it's like for me to be balancing things on both ends? and please. don't think you know everything, because you really don't. praising Him is a matter of whether we want to or not, and it doesn't have to be perfect. because it's the thought that counts.
And believe it or not, even if i'm in exco: i'm still human, and i make mistakes. It's not fair how just because you're sleeping your lazy ass in and don't see the effort we put in then you automatically assume that we didn't put in any effort at all. I don't know, maybe it's from years of expecting too much from these girls that you always come to expect the worst. I don't think that last sentence made any sense so let's move on.
Alright so... it's the 14TH OF JULY! Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2 is out today! and i'm watching on sunday :) although i think it won't go well with ben, maybe we should try to cover and say we're watching monte carlo instead?
Speaking of the 14th... can you remember what happened 4 months ago? today i was awake and replaying the events in my head when i realised it doesn't hurt so much anymore. so imagine my confundedness when i saw what happened on facebook just an hour ago. they're over? are they over for good? did they even start? the most important question is: do i want them to be over? but... two weeks ago they were perfectly fine. why does she have to do this to him? it's not fair. it's not fair when she makes him wait and then says that they can't do this anymore. it's so confusing on about a hundred different levels.
by the way, during the course of typing this, i've decided that i won't cover up for their mistakes anymore. they need to learn a lesson. and where can i find a better person to do that than our dearest lovely ______? she will certainly put them in their place because that's what she does best, isn't it? and i've been on duty nearly everyday since school started. i think it's only fair that i not be there until it's my duty for real. and i'm not going to show up on tuesdays either. they don't practice? their fault. you want to make sure they do? sure, be my guest, but i'm not going to be the one sacrificing my sleep for them when you clearly don't appreciate it. it's about freaking time you showed us how much of a leader you really are by stepping up and leading us instead of throwing it all to me. screw this.
mmm. his lovely eyes. i could die happy in those beautiful gray eyes ♥
♥always,
hazel
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