breakaway.

What the hell just happened? I allowed myself to test you one last time just for old times sake and whaaat? I'm really confused now and in the midst of my confusion I realised something: I'd like to hear it from you personally and not from a third party who doesn't fully understand the terms of our (non)relationship.

If I dare, that is. But the thing is, this doesn't change anything. right? what makes me think things have changed simply because I have gained the insight of someone else over the course of this month? You're still the same old clueless boy, who means no harm. yeah. right. you're absolutely harmless. Somehow I still smile but we're venturing into uncharted waters and I don't want to go there. This won't change anything. I'm still not ever going back to that ever again. I can't pretend that I don't know anymore.

DHFSDFSC UGH. It bugs me like hell.

I had the most fun in a while at April's party today even though no one i was really close to came, I still lived to tell the tale. loosening up was a success :) I had to leave early though but it's okay. It was fun while it lasted. At least I got to know some other people.

"Take it as he's testing you, rather than you're testing him." So... one of my close friends told me that and yeah. What is considered passing and failing? What is he testing me on? Who knows. Who cares. It probably means nothing anyway. like most things we have. Day 20. 20% haha.

"i'll spread my wings and i'll learn how to fly. though it's not easy to tell you goodbye. i gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a chance, and breakaway."

♥ always,

hazel