i heart question mark.

"It's become a topic that we don't talk about, one that we just kick under the carpet, ignoring the lump it forms."

WE HAVE MUCH TO DISCUSS, BLOGGER. Mmkay. First week being exco. Not much happened, although it doesn't really seem like the title belongs to me yet. Maybe it's because I haven't really done much. And so she gave me a thick binded file which she said clearly to "leave in a corner to rot". I couldn't stand the condition of it so I got out my binder sticker things & fixed it. Okay so that's one thing done. And after that we had a meeting with Ms Ho and then we discussed all the typical things. ugh we have to plan for sec 2 training camp!! & be there physically -.- I thought planning the sec 1 camp would be my first and last time planning a camp but obviously not. & oh wait!! i just realised we'll have OCIP! oh well ;D

And so... Ms Ho asked me if I was okay with my role. What else could I say right...? So I gave her the answer she wanted. And then something else happened that really was like de ja vu. Or however that goes. I can't describe it exactly too much in detail at risk of either of them coming on here and reading this but yeah.

It never occurred to me that even though she's a pretty happy go lucky person, she's quite sensitive too. It was like she read my mind in that instant and shot back her reply that matched mine in my head that I was never gonna tell her. So now she knows, kinda. And she's close to him. And the thing is, I'd been imagining that moment so many times but when it really happened I didn't respond the way I'd imagined myself to. sigh. my expression must have given away something but now she knows the truth. But the strange thing was, I wasn't exactly sure of the reason until she said it, then it all came into perspective and I realised it was true.

But she won't tell.

At least, I hope. I want to know why he did that though. So now he decides that he cares after totally blowing me off. Too late, i'm sorry babe. I know the truth now, and even though it didn't come from you, it came from a pretty reliable source though. Stop being such a freaking jerk and caring about two girls at the same time. &FYI, one of my best friends hasn't even met you yet and she hates you. i do too.

that's quite enough of that. that's one major thing. I'm too tired to talk about the rest, but just take my word for it that this week was pretty rough. still have my exco speech to do tomorrow, i hope it's inspirational enough :/

♥always,
hazel