expectations, expecting, expected.

I don't feel anything. It's alright though. i'm fine. i'm okay. everything's good.

I didn't cry in front of her. Which means that I kept my promise to myself. And that's better than I could have ever hoped. I feel so weird now. Yesterday I dreamt that she was scolding me over some mundane matter like she always does and when she left i started crying uncontrollably. my friend came over and hugged me. then i woke up and i was actually crying. and who knew, today that exact same thing happened. and it was that same friend again. is this a sign? what could this possibly mean? foreshadowing???? yeah well maybe i'll do well for lit on monday too. sigh. i'm so damn tired of all this crap.

i'm so tired now. i can't feel anything. this is so ridiculous. it's friday dammit. What is up with all my incoherent sentences???

i dont want to think anymore. i'll just cross that bridge when i come to it. now, for my punishment that i feel i deserve. yeah, right. here goes.

my responsibility is to click slides.

my responsibility is to click slides.

my responsibility is to click slides.

my responsibility is to click slides.

my responsibility is to click slides.

my responsibility is to click slides.

my responsiblilty is to click slides.

my responsibility is to click slides.

my responsibility is to click slides.

my responsibility is to click slides.

my responsibility is to click slides.

my responsibility is to click slides.

my responsibility is to click slides.

and no, i can honestly say i didnt make use of this useful function that we all know called copy and paste. happy now, bitch?

i'm so thankful though, to say the least. i'm very lucky to have people that care about me. i want you, yes you reading this right now, to know that i dont take them for granted. no matter what happens, no matter how badly she treats me, i know i can depend on all of you. thank you so much.

it's really great to have someone who understands. someone who's gone through the exact same thing. i'm so thankful, really. i love you.

♥ you guys forever and always,

hazel.