best day since term reopened. 1: Avril is coming to Singapore!!!! i'm so excited ahhhhhhh. 9th may. Will be the best night eveeeeeeeeeeeer. Even though it's on a weekday. BUT there's no way I'm missing it. even though the next day is a math CT. I remember going in 2008 on sunday when there were prelims on monday. yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy hahaha. One Seven Five kachinggggggggggggggg. :( but :)))) haha.
okay i forgot 2! 2: ________________________________. Lol, sorry! But it's too amazing to share. So cute though. OKAY I cannot concentrate on writing this. I can't do blogs and chat and freaking out all at the same time. But still. I'm going to try my best to keep writing this.
Okayyyyyy so. We had all three sciences today. If they were SPA it wouldn't be so bad but they were all theory! >.> Almost died. But I got through it!
It will take me so much longer to type this because I'm being distracted by a super sweet guy. But still, no. I'm not going there. never, ever ever.
oh who am i kidding?
Just myself, apparently. But at least I have someone who thinks almost the same way. 2 people, to be exact. Okay okay let's get this over with. Day 9 if i'm not wrong. 20% done. I'm not going to lose sanity over that stupid boy. Enough said.
♥ love always,
hazel
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Monday, March 21, 2011
not now pleaseee?
Okay, so um... I'm surprised. Very surprised but yeah. I don't know how to react and I think that's just lame. It's just a text right? From an ordinary person? yeah, right. I can't explain but so much is on this text and what I reply. Probably like whether I get a new identity or remain as 'one of those three'. Something along those lines.
I hate it when he lumps me in with them. I. cannot. stand. it. Really. At least someone else sees it too and she says it's painful to watch. I agree, and it's not even her. Ugh. What should I do? I know what I have to do but I don't have the heart or courage to do it. Ditch, or not to ditch? Well, at least there's another reason to skip for a while. But who else is there besides 'months'? Okay, maybe one other girl but I totally don't have to reach out, yet right? Forget that. I have other things to deal with.
Like the physics quiz tomorrow. I am entirely screwed. I don't undestand anything other than F=mA and sometimes I can't even apply that ughhhhh. I am so messed up in physics. I'm starting to wish i never took physics but it's either that or history. & we all know how i suck at history.
Okay soooooo. I can proudly say that I came out of this experience with something learnt. Okay. I'm gonna represent it in a inequality type thing form. What the hell? Yeah. Here goes:
15< x < 18. Did you get that? LOLOL. So for all of those none math folks(although that is no excuse because this is e math not a math) i'll write it out in english. I have learnt that: no guys the same age as me. Adding on to my previous rule of no guys younger or 3 years older either. Criteria? No, it's not criteria, it's just basically guidelines i made in order to not get.. how do you say it.. ouched. Lack of a better word, but yeah. with that i'll say i'm up to 15% today. whoohoo! :)
♥ always,
hazel
I hate it when he lumps me in with them. I. cannot. stand. it. Really. At least someone else sees it too and she says it's painful to watch. I agree, and it's not even her. Ugh. What should I do? I know what I have to do but I don't have the heart or courage to do it. Ditch, or not to ditch? Well, at least there's another reason to skip for a while. But who else is there besides 'months'? Okay, maybe one other girl but I totally don't have to reach out, yet right? Forget that. I have other things to deal with.
Like the physics quiz tomorrow. I am entirely screwed. I don't undestand anything other than F=mA and sometimes I can't even apply that ughhhhh. I am so messed up in physics. I'm starting to wish i never took physics but it's either that or history. & we all know how i suck at history.
Okay soooooo. I can proudly say that I came out of this experience with something learnt. Okay. I'm gonna represent it in a inequality type thing form. What the hell? Yeah. Here goes:
15< x < 18. Did you get that? LOLOL. So for all of those none math folks(although that is no excuse because this is e math not a math) i'll write it out in english. I have learnt that: no guys the same age as me. Adding on to my previous rule of no guys younger or 3 years older either. Criteria? No, it's not criteria, it's just basically guidelines i made in order to not get.. how do you say it.. ouched. Lack of a better word, but yeah. with that i'll say i'm up to 15% today. whoohoo! :)
♥ always,
hazel
Sunday, March 20, 2011
remember when?
Ouch I'm so hungryyy. I have given up on lit and chinese. Thankfully I don't have them tomorrow. The spirit of procrastination lives on! Whoo hooooooo :)
The chemistry tutition today was fun becauseeeee... the teacher was funny? Okay I know that's not the point but I felt like I would actually look forward to his classes even though he gives homework >.> It's MONDAY tomorrow. Not just any monday, a schooling monday. But to be honest, how many mondays are not a schooling monday? This is technically my earliest blog post of the week they'll probably get earlier and earlier, where I'm reduced to blogging from my phone at 7 am. I have no idea how to do that though haha.
Dayyyy what? 7? It's been a week. And i've moved on to someone else?! No, just kidding. I don't believe my traitorous self. Don't even go there. Ahhhh but this always happens, I know what to expect don't I? After a month or two it'll just go away on it's own.
Okay okay I need to wrap this up so I can go and sleep. Totally don't feel like though. I think i'm about 13% done. Although I can't tell for sure, anyone wants to be my shrink? :/
♥ hazel :)
Edit: What am I talking about? It is 7!! JK :)
The chemistry tutition today was fun becauseeeee... the teacher was funny? Okay I know that's not the point but I felt like I would actually look forward to his classes even though he gives homework >.> It's MONDAY tomorrow. Not just any monday, a schooling monday. But to be honest, how many mondays are not a schooling monday? This is technically my earliest blog post of the week they'll probably get earlier and earlier, where I'm reduced to blogging from my phone at 7 am. I have no idea how to do that though haha.
Dayyyy what? 7? It's been a week. And i've moved on to someone else?! No, just kidding. I don't believe my traitorous self. Don't even go there. Ahhhh but this always happens, I know what to expect don't I? After a month or two it'll just go away on it's own.
Okay okay I need to wrap this up so I can go and sleep. Totally don't feel like though. I think i'm about 13% done. Although I can't tell for sure, anyone wants to be my shrink? :/
♥ hazel :)
Edit: What am I talking about? It is 7!! JK :)
dayyyyyy 6 :)
jxfvjkshfw I'm so tired. It's like 1.40AM now and I stayed up to do my lit logbook. Ughhhh and it's only half done >.> When i'm done with this it'll probably be 2AM.
I finished a math but I left most of them unfinished so does that count? And my friend finished up the lit groupwork so yay. Now I'm left with half of lit, half of chinese and yeah. and I have chemistry tuition tomorrow. Or, today. And a physics test on tuesday. And house practice on monday. Whaaat the hell.
So day 6 is supposed to be yesterday, 19 march 2011. But it still works right because the time and dating thing here is screwed right? It's okay I guess, not much change that I know of. It seems like I'm just going on day after day but it's getting better. I'm kind of 10% in and I can't turn back. I hate to admit it but I was affected by her coming on here and reading my innermost feelings but I guess I deserve it, this is a public blog after all, but she used to be someone I know. And that hurts the most, I don't know her anymore. Whatever, so I changed the url and I know it seems a bit weird but what can you do?
So the first time begins tomorrow. I hope I can keep coming up with excuses, at least until a few weeks later. I feel so guilty but again, what can I do?
Japan, it's been a bit more than one week, I hope you're doing okay. I hope all the supplies we're all sending to you are getting through, just hang in there okay? You'll be okay, just get through it, I promise. Sending my love and wishes your way.
♥ hazel
I finished a math but I left most of them unfinished so does that count? And my friend finished up the lit groupwork so yay. Now I'm left with half of lit, half of chinese and yeah. and I have chemistry tuition tomorrow. Or, today. And a physics test on tuesday. And house practice on monday. Whaaat the hell.
So day 6 is supposed to be yesterday, 19 march 2011. But it still works right because the time and dating thing here is screwed right? It's okay I guess, not much change that I know of. It seems like I'm just going on day after day but it's getting better. I'm kind of 10% in and I can't turn back. I hate to admit it but I was affected by her coming on here and reading my innermost feelings but I guess I deserve it, this is a public blog after all, but she used to be someone I know. And that hurts the most, I don't know her anymore. Whatever, so I changed the url and I know it seems a bit weird but what can you do?
So the first time begins tomorrow. I hope I can keep coming up with excuses, at least until a few weeks later. I feel so guilty but again, what can I do?
Japan, it's been a bit more than one week, I hope you're doing okay. I hope all the supplies we're all sending to you are getting through, just hang in there okay? You'll be okay, just get through it, I promise. Sending my love and wishes your way.
♥ hazel
Saturday, March 19, 2011
hey there bitch. nice to meet you.
You, yes you reading this. Right. Now.
I didn't know you could be so insensitive, but whatever, I don't need your comments. That was in the past. At least now I know you stalk me. And seriously? As if you even care about Japan. What other tragedy is there? Oh wait- the fact that you're still white after two weeks on the beach! Let's book an appointment with the tanning salon, shall we? You have to be perfect after all. You don't care about anyone other than yourself, and that's a fact. One of your best friends said it, so what could be more true? He showed his ugly side to you, and now you're believing that he's the same person again. It's a disaster waiting to happen again, trust me.
I never thought I'd meet a two faced person like you. Even the girls I know who I think are like that aren't half as bad as you. You say you did nothing to me? How about being so condescending all the time with your sarcastic remarks, being so cynical that it's annoying? How is that nothing? I realised I don't care anymore. It was nice while it lasted, but after you turned sour I wish I never knew you. Fuck off, I don't need you writing your sardonic comments on twitter and being all fake. You thought I'd never find out? Think again, bitch. If you have something to say, say it to my face and don't just post it on twitter where you hope I won't see it. Well, I hope you see this, bitch :)
♥ hazel.
I didn't know you could be so insensitive, but whatever, I don't need your comments. That was in the past. At least now I know you stalk me. And seriously? As if you even care about Japan. What other tragedy is there? Oh wait- the fact that you're still white after two weeks on the beach! Let's book an appointment with the tanning salon, shall we? You have to be perfect after all. You don't care about anyone other than yourself, and that's a fact. One of your best friends said it, so what could be more true? He showed his ugly side to you, and now you're believing that he's the same person again. It's a disaster waiting to happen again, trust me.
I never thought I'd meet a two faced person like you. Even the girls I know who I think are like that aren't half as bad as you. You say you did nothing to me? How about being so condescending all the time with your sarcastic remarks, being so cynical that it's annoying? How is that nothing? I realised I don't care anymore. It was nice while it lasted, but after you turned sour I wish I never knew you. Fuck off, I don't need you writing your sardonic comments on twitter and being all fake. You thought I'd never find out? Think again, bitch. If you have something to say, say it to my face and don't just post it on twitter where you hope I won't see it. Well, I hope you see this, bitch :)
♥ hazel.
11:11
I heart algebra. So it hearts me back. But I hate log. So it hates me back. Pretty simple logic yeah?
Log seriously sucks. So does surds. Ugh. I need to practice like 896456 times before I can get it right, something which i have absolutely no time for. But I still love math. Love me back, math? haha. So today I think was okay. Cleared 25% of Lit, E Math, English, Social Studies, half of Chinese. Sighhh. That leaves 75% of Lit, half of Chinese, A Math and yeah I think that's it. >.> The lit project groupwork was awesomely fun. I love working on musical projects. And she, is yelling at Eudora, somewhere back inside the room wearing a frack shaped like guava cheese. LOL lovelovelove.
It's getting okayish now. Although, sometimes I wish things were different. I wish I could turn back the time and change everything. But what would I change it to? I have no idea. Do I even want to change it? Be careful what you wish for, it might just come true. I can't stop thinking of you, of what might happen if things were different. Past tense is a sad thing, and I think I've spammed that in this paragraph. But everytime I think of you, I also think, I liked you. For 2 years, but that's not the point here.
I wish things were different.
I am not going to lie. I still can't resist and I've never been good at that. It will get better with time, but the hard part is waiting. But hey, I got through those 2 years, it feels like I can wait for about 2 more. After 2 years of hiding you get good with keeping it to yourself.
"The one constant factor in every one of my failures or stumbles is me." -Evan Taubenfeld
yessss and the famed progress bar: 10% :/
♥ hazel.
Log seriously sucks. So does surds. Ugh. I need to practice like 896456 times before I can get it right, something which i have absolutely no time for. But I still love math. Love me back, math? haha. So today I think was okay. Cleared 25% of Lit, E Math, English, Social Studies, half of Chinese. Sighhh. That leaves 75% of Lit, half of Chinese, A Math and yeah I think that's it. >.> The lit project groupwork was awesomely fun. I love working on musical projects. And she, is yelling at Eudora, somewhere back inside the room wearing a frack shaped like guava cheese. LOL lovelovelove.
It's getting okayish now. Although, sometimes I wish things were different. I wish I could turn back the time and change everything. But what would I change it to? I have no idea. Do I even want to change it? Be careful what you wish for, it might just come true. I can't stop thinking of you, of what might happen if things were different. Past tense is a sad thing, and I think I've spammed that in this paragraph. But everytime I think of you, I also think, I liked you. For 2 years, but that's not the point here.
I wish things were different.
I am not going to lie. I still can't resist and I've never been good at that. It will get better with time, but the hard part is waiting. But hey, I got through those 2 years, it feels like I can wait for about 2 more. After 2 years of hiding you get good with keeping it to yourself.
"The one constant factor in every one of my failures or stumbles is me." -Evan Taubenfeld
yessss and the famed progress bar: 10% :/
♥ hazel.
Friday, March 18, 2011
dayyyy 4 :)
Okay so I was wrong about a few things. 1. today was not productive >.> 2. the butterflies are still there.
That's about all, thankfully. With everyday that passes it gets further and further from what happened and I'm grateful for that, even though it means the holidays are gonna end soon. Maybe it's for the better since this week was no different from a school week. And I just discovered (Y) means thumbs up and not heart and (N) means thumbs down. MSN works wonders.
I heart my copy of Goodbye Lullaby :) it was the last deluxe version! Anddd it came with a tote bag with 'what the hell' on the front. Whoohoo :) There was worship practice again today which means my fingers are dead. We played so much that both mine and my friend's guitar decided to go off tune at the same time which is pretty freaky. I think I managed to tune it back on my own though so yay :) because I need to use it tomorrow for literature. whaaat? that's right.
I just realised that because I've been posting after 12 midnight so the date below is 18, not 17. Oh well, i still wrote this on the 17th of March 2011 :) I love this smiley face btw :)
Okay so... I don't really know what's going on up here. I hope it's getting better though but truth be told I haven't really have had much time to think about what's been happening lately. Overanalysis: always a part of my life.
I almost forgot the progress bar! LOL that's so nerd but whatever :)
Progress bar: 9% We're gettin' there.
'Cause I'm 4real, are you 4real?
♥hazel.
No wait, the time & date thing on this blog is messed up so all's good :)
That's about all, thankfully. With everyday that passes it gets further and further from what happened and I'm grateful for that, even though it means the holidays are gonna end soon. Maybe it's for the better since this week was no different from a school week. And I just discovered (Y) means thumbs up and not heart and (N) means thumbs down. MSN works wonders.
I heart my copy of Goodbye Lullaby :) it was the last deluxe version! Anddd it came with a tote bag with 'what the hell' on the front. Whoohoo :) There was worship practice again today which means my fingers are dead. We played so much that both mine and my friend's guitar decided to go off tune at the same time which is pretty freaky. I think I managed to tune it back on my own though so yay :) because I need to use it tomorrow for literature. whaaat? that's right.
I just realised that because I've been posting after 12 midnight so the date below is 18, not 17. Oh well, i still wrote this on the 17th of March 2011 :) I love this smiley face btw :)
Okay so... I don't really know what's going on up here. I hope it's getting better though but truth be told I haven't really have had much time to think about what's been happening lately. Overanalysis: always a part of my life.
I almost forgot the progress bar! LOL that's so nerd but whatever :)
Progress bar: 9% We're gettin' there.
'Cause I'm 4real, are you 4real?
♥hazel.
No wait, the time & date thing on this blog is messed up so all's good :)
Thursday, March 17, 2011
when push comes to shove
Let's see, we are on day 3 now.
Progress bar: 7% full. Getting better. Whoo hoo! :)
I feeling positively a lot better. Today I had worship prac. My fingers are beyond bruised and I'm kinda hoping I'll get this hard skin thing over them. But they're really hard to keep and if I don't play for about a day they'll run away :(
My homework pile is still towering over me and I have no willpower to clear it. I did about three quarters of bio today. Tomorrow will be a serious homework day. Mark my words, I will report back tomorrow. I kind of like when my head is overwhelmed with things I have to get done and remember. It helps to forget and maybe by the end of this week it'll be up to 15%? Slow, i know, but that's how it goes.
I'm feeling so much better but i know better, obviously.okay i think i'm tired and my fingers need a rest. laterrr :)
everybody feels this way, yeah and it's okay
lalalalala it's okay.
♥hazel.
Progress bar: 7% full. Getting better. Whoo hoo! :)
I feeling positively a lot better. Today I had worship prac. My fingers are beyond bruised and I'm kinda hoping I'll get this hard skin thing over them. But they're really hard to keep and if I don't play for about a day they'll run away :(
My homework pile is still towering over me and I have no willpower to clear it. I did about three quarters of bio today. Tomorrow will be a serious homework day. Mark my words, I will report back tomorrow. I kind of like when my head is overwhelmed with things I have to get done and remember. It helps to forget and maybe by the end of this week it'll be up to 15%? Slow, i know, but that's how it goes.
I'm feeling so much better but i know better, obviously.okay i think i'm tired and my fingers need a rest. laterrr :)
everybody feels this way, yeah and it's okay
lalalalala it's okay.
♥hazel.
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
goodbye, brown eyes.
DAY 1.
Technically this is supposed to be posted on 14th March but I was kinda in camp so instead I'm typing it up now. I know this seems kind of lame but I'm gonna start on this day by day blogging thing hoping it might help with getting over some darker stuff. Honesty is brutal, but hey, no judgment here right?
Today was slightly better. Here's the truth: i found out that a big part of my life for the last two years is now gone and with someone else. I think I knew the truth all along but I was just denying it. Serves me right. My mentality is screwed up because I think they're kinda cute together because he's waiting for her and she's trusting him not to run away. No bonds, but it's as good as having one. Isn't that so sweet? See how messed up I am? I'm thinking my excrush and another girl are so cute together and there's not even a hint of jealousy. But I think I made at least 10% progress today. The butterflies are gone and I can't say I miss them. What I can't get over is that moment, when I thought we were. Going at this rate, I think i'll be okay in 10 days. Not.
It's so hard to handle. I don't think I can do this. I hate having to pretend everything's okay when it's not. The reason why I'm okay with posting this publicly is that even if the subject comes on here and reads this, as far as I know, he is/will be totally clueless and just think i'm a psycho. I think i'm gonna skip church cell for an inordinate amount of time. I know it's wrong but i can't deal with this.
DAY 2
Okayyy so. Deeeeeeep breath. So many things happened in the past few days and it's so overwhelming. 1: There are more skeletons in the closet than I thought. 2: backstabbing namecalling secretlyhating. 3: last time:out of the loop, now: in the loop, and not exactly sure I want to be. 4: i'm not exactly sure i'm convinced that you're not superficial and I don't think I wanna join a group of friends that make me uncomfortable. 5: HTHT with someone I'm not really close to but the best option at that moment can actually help. 6: things have changed but I don't know if it's for the better or worse.
We are changed to bring about change. to bring about change. And I hate change.
The progress bar right now has dwindled to about 5%. It hurts more than yesterday and I don't know why. Isn't it supposed to get better with time? I think i need to loosen up. goodbye, brown eyes. goodbye for now.
this feelings i can't take no more
this emptyness in the bottom drawer
is gettin' harder to pretend
and i'm not coming back around again
that was then
now it's the end
i'm not coming back
i cant pretend
remember when.
i hope i get better soon too.
♥hazel.
Technically this is supposed to be posted on 14th March but I was kinda in camp so instead I'm typing it up now. I know this seems kind of lame but I'm gonna start on this day by day blogging thing hoping it might help with getting over some darker stuff. Honesty is brutal, but hey, no judgment here right?
Today was slightly better. Here's the truth: i found out that a big part of my life for the last two years is now gone and with someone else. I think I knew the truth all along but I was just denying it. Serves me right. My mentality is screwed up because I think they're kinda cute together because he's waiting for her and she's trusting him not to run away. No bonds, but it's as good as having one. Isn't that so sweet? See how messed up I am? I'm thinking my excrush and another girl are so cute together and there's not even a hint of jealousy. But I think I made at least 10% progress today. The butterflies are gone and I can't say I miss them. What I can't get over is that moment, when I thought we were. Going at this rate, I think i'll be okay in 10 days. Not.
It's so hard to handle. I don't think I can do this. I hate having to pretend everything's okay when it's not. The reason why I'm okay with posting this publicly is that even if the subject comes on here and reads this, as far as I know, he is/will be totally clueless and just think i'm a psycho. I think i'm gonna skip church cell for an inordinate amount of time. I know it's wrong but i can't deal with this.
DAY 2
Okayyy so. Deeeeeeep breath. So many things happened in the past few days and it's so overwhelming. 1: There are more skeletons in the closet than I thought. 2: backstabbing namecalling secretlyhating. 3: last time:out of the loop, now: in the loop, and not exactly sure I want to be. 4: i'm not exactly sure i'm convinced that you're not superficial and I don't think I wanna join a group of friends that make me uncomfortable. 5: HTHT with someone I'm not really close to but the best option at that moment can actually help. 6: things have changed but I don't know if it's for the better or worse.
We are changed to bring about change. to bring about change. And I hate change.
The progress bar right now has dwindled to about 5%. It hurts more than yesterday and I don't know why. Isn't it supposed to get better with time? I think i need to loosen up. goodbye, brown eyes. goodbye for now.
this feelings i can't take no more
this emptyness in the bottom drawer
is gettin' harder to pretend
and i'm not coming back around again
that was then
now it's the end
i'm not coming back
i cant pretend
remember when.
i hope i get better soon too.
♥hazel.
Friday, February 25, 2011
i wish you were here.
All this talking to you
I dont know what I'm to do
I don't know where you stand,
what's inside of your head
All this thinkin' of you
Is that what you're doing too?
You're always on my mind
I talk about you all of the time.
3A1 is better than expected, though it might take some getting used to. I don't like changes, but after they're put in place sometimes I'm okay with it. Remember i mentioned if sec 3 was gonna be like sec 2- just nothing? Well, it's not really but maybe by the end of the year i'll change my mind. I hate SPAs. We have them once a week and now i'm starting to understand why it's so stressful. Make that once a week, times 3.
i got goodbye lullaby! Downloaded but still awesome. I love everything on it :) don't worry, i'll still totally get the real hardcopy plastic round things that still exist and they're called CDs. I love 'Not Enough' and 'Push' but 'Wish You Were Here' is really catchy too. i love avril, she writes the story of my life. more than any other artist. I wish she would come here to do promo though, since she went to Hong Kong a few days ago. I wouldn't even hesitate a second to skip school or something to go haha. & the acoustic guitar in the songs are so cool, i'm really going to have to practice a lot more and learn some of them. Right now they mostly sound like they need a capo. i could be wrong though, i'm still not good at playing by ear. The drums sound okay, just a lot of bass, snare and some hi hats and crashes here and there.
End rant. And by the way? I think I need to brush up on my consoling skills because apparently my 'tactic', or lack thereof, didn't work as well as hers. we'll see how it goes from now and honestly i don't know what to hope for. Either way, someone will get hurt and i'm not sure i can face the consequences. Should i just bail? if I do, and even if i don't, i'll wonder for the next few weeks what would have happened if i did/didn't.
It's not enough, it's not enough to get me
what it is I want, it's not enough,
it's not enough to get me everything i need.
And i, i wish it was.
I think it's time to give this up.
It's not enough, it's not enough.
I apologise for that because i'm currently listening to GL on repeat ^^ It's so good, so much better than Taylor. sorry! when Avril gets down here i'm gonna get front row seats with some other friends that are as dedicated :) This might sound creepy but we're planning to mob her at the airport. I have no idea how they get information about that but all's good :D
Maybe you should just shut up
Even when it gets tough
Baby 'cause this is love
And even when push comes to shove,
it's gonna take the both of us.
Baby this is love.
You and me, we can both start over
Just the two of us, we can get a little closer
So follow me, honestly, and you will see ♥
i love you,
hazel.
I dont know what I'm to do
I don't know where you stand,
what's inside of your head
All this thinkin' of you
Is that what you're doing too?
You're always on my mind
I talk about you all of the time.
3A1 is better than expected, though it might take some getting used to. I don't like changes, but after they're put in place sometimes I'm okay with it. Remember i mentioned if sec 3 was gonna be like sec 2- just nothing? Well, it's not really but maybe by the end of the year i'll change my mind. I hate SPAs. We have them once a week and now i'm starting to understand why it's so stressful. Make that once a week, times 3.
i got goodbye lullaby! Downloaded but still awesome. I love everything on it :) don't worry, i'll still totally get the real hardcopy plastic round things that still exist and they're called CDs. I love 'Not Enough' and 'Push' but 'Wish You Were Here' is really catchy too. i love avril, she writes the story of my life. more than any other artist. I wish she would come here to do promo though, since she went to Hong Kong a few days ago. I wouldn't even hesitate a second to skip school or something to go haha. & the acoustic guitar in the songs are so cool, i'm really going to have to practice a lot more and learn some of them. Right now they mostly sound like they need a capo. i could be wrong though, i'm still not good at playing by ear. The drums sound okay, just a lot of bass, snare and some hi hats and crashes here and there.
End rant. And by the way? I think I need to brush up on my consoling skills because apparently my 'tactic', or lack thereof, didn't work as well as hers. we'll see how it goes from now and honestly i don't know what to hope for. Either way, someone will get hurt and i'm not sure i can face the consequences. Should i just bail? if I do, and even if i don't, i'll wonder for the next few weeks what would have happened if i did/didn't.
It's not enough, it's not enough to get me
what it is I want, it's not enough,
it's not enough to get me everything i need.
And i, i wish it was.
I think it's time to give this up.
It's not enough, it's not enough.
I apologise for that because i'm currently listening to GL on repeat ^^ It's so good, so much better than Taylor. sorry! when Avril gets down here i'm gonna get front row seats with some other friends that are as dedicated :) This might sound creepy but we're planning to mob her at the airport. I have no idea how they get information about that but all's good :D
Maybe you should just shut up
Even when it gets tough
Baby 'cause this is love
And even when push comes to shove,
it's gonna take the both of us.
Baby this is love.
You and me, we can both start over
Just the two of us, we can get a little closer
So follow me, honestly, and you will see ♥
i love you,
hazel.
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