gotta talk to you

Hello everyone!!!! I hope you've been well, it's been a week since I last updated but not much has happened.

Now that I'm officially unemployed again, my days pass by so fast in a blur of laziness, which I can't exactly say is bad ;) I went to cut and dye my hair too, something which I've been wanting to do for a long time since my roots were beginning to show. I caught Jurassic World in 3D as well, and did you know that Shaw doesn't loan out 3D glasses anymore? You have to buy your own for $2 a pair. I guess it's worth it though, since you only have to buy it once and it's a lot more hygienic. But we basically got them for free though since students get a $2 discount on tickets.

On to the movie itself: it was so awful! (read: amazingly cool but so intensely scary). There were some primary school ish boys in the same row, and I'm ashamed to say that they weren't scared at all whereas I was clutching at my friend's hand for dear life. But the adults behind me screamed at some scenes, so I guess I didn't do too badly.

UM if you're not scared of this badass popping out of your screen randomly while roaring like hell then idk man. Not to mention the crunching and screaming whenever someone gets eaten

But overall, it was good. For the effects and the animation (i don't think this is the right word to use here but) but the overall plot was just a huge "this is not a good idea" and "hoe don't do it" right from the beginning. But I enjoyed it nevertheless.

On a more serious note, I stumbled across an old friend's blog the past week, and I found some old posts that were made right when we were going through a rough patch. I guess naturally we all tend to tell the story from our point of view, and that can be really inaccurate sometimes. But I got all annoyed at the way she described things and- I won't go into detail. It was almost a year ago, and I've moved on. But the whole time I was reading her blog I just

So yeah. 

Oh I got called up by my fac camp group leader today!!!!! It was hilarious bc I was actually pranked (like all the other members in my group, as I soon found out). The call started out with the caller (a guy) introducing himself to be from NUS psych, and asking if he could do a survey on me, and that I had a chance of winning a $30 shopping voucher. So I agreed, and his first question was: What kind of trait do you look for in a partner? I was caught pretty off guard by that and to be honest, I couldn't think of ANY trait. And it didn't help that I was browsing through pics of GD atm. So after much hemming and hawing I finally answered honesty, and a sense of humour. 

The second question was as follows: How high would you rate looks and attractiveness in a guy? From a scale of 1-10. I answered honestly like 6-7, which is a pretty safe answer I feel? Idk man as long as the guy appeals to my standards, I'm good. And it's pretty hard to rate whether someone has high or low standards, but I've been told that my taste in guys are not that good.

Third q: If you found out that your boyfriend has a small dick, would you dump him? To which I said no, since I have to look at him as a whole person and not just judge based on his size or whatever. Ugh I was seriously stuttering so bad here bc the qns were getting so inappropriate and I considered hanging up. And finally, the last q: Would you want a bf with a long dick or a thick dick?

Omg dealbreaker. Obviously I wasn't about to choose between the two, since the politically correct answer would be "I don't choose my bf based on dick size." And that's just what I said since at that point in time I obviously knew this wasn't a real survey and it was some kind of prank. Then I was congratulated for passing the test and that I was offered a place in the HSS camp.

Wow talk about speechless. I mean I knew it was a prank of sorts, but I didn't expect it to be from my group leaders hahaha. So I was given some pretty basic details about my grouping and stuff which I don't really remember haha but I do remember that my camp group is called Gaia!!!!! I was asked to send an unglam selfie of myself, which I did ugh I hope I didn't scare anyone off, and I was added to a chat group with all my group members.

Which cues my earlier anxieties that developed over the past two years. I have a fear of talking in group chats with people I don't really know (long story) mainly bc I'm scared of being ganged up on or ignored. But recently I'm trying to live by this logic: It's only awkward if you make it so. So I'm gonna try my best not to make things awkward, 'cause it's almost always in my imagination. 

Yup that pretty much sums up my week. I have my health checkup at NTU tomorrow, so I'll let you guys know how that goes as well. Hope you all have a fantastic week ahead!!! (no monday blues for me finally ;))

❤️ always,

Hazel